what am i doing these years?

i quit that one because of him.
now i am seeking a new job now. sended many resums to many companies jonline, i only received three reply. however, during the interview, i need to translate some articles in half an hour, i did really bad. it says, the opppotunities often come to the people who prepared well. i didn't prepare well, so i can't get that job. i thought i can find a job easiy, but now i find i can't really do the translation job well. what have i learned？ what am i doing these years?
when i watch tv, seeing the dialogues between Yang Rui and the foreigners, i hope i can speak english fluently and translate them well. i admire them so much.
work hard and make progress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to be a translator!!!!!!!!!!!